its good that he is leaving because now i dont need to think about it.. all i know is that i dont want a relationship right now, but i do need a friend like that. i need a friend first, i dont wanna jump into anything bigger right now. i know i could, but i dont think im ready. i cant do it before i know 100% that i can be independent. its gonna be a long long way but its the only way.. the moment i get attached to someone my life turns into hell. somehow i need to win this.