so they tell me to weight all the pros and cons
but what if theres just ONE plus - "everything might work out"
and ONE minus - "nothing might work out"
then how am i supposed to weight?!

it might very well be that god's given me a chance. the only chance i might ever get. and im not using it... im sitting here and thinking about it and im not using it.
the deadline is tomorrow. its either i go there today or dont go at all. i have no idea. i have no idea. i just had an important interview and i wasnt as nervous about it as i am about going there.
i feel so horrible right now i feel like my head's gonna blow up.
i dont know.... ive never been so nervous in my life.
ok im gonna go right now. if i faint on my way.. oh my god. oh my god. i feel so fucking nervous i just dont know what to do.