суббота, 14 мая 2011
01:01

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хочется влюбиться, но без драмы. так вообще бывает? а то ну очень мне хочется без драмы.

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пятница, 13 мая 2011
08:56

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

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"This is about four months late, but I wanted you to know that I meant to contact you to talk everything out. School overwhelmed me (calculus..ugh) and I lost track of time. By the time I had cleared everything, I just assumed it was too late. But I think about ya still, and I always hope that you're doing alright"






you havent changed a tiny bit.

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07:18

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c чистой совестью теперь - невероятно хорошо.) i know im always right.

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четверг, 12 мая 2011
23:32

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мне нужно научиться спокойно реагировать на события.

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20:30

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ну закончила я второй курс, и как я его закончила...

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05:47

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NEXT TIME I DONT TRUST IT PLEASE SLAP ME IN THE FACE

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среда, 11 мая 2011
06:55

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also, and ive been thinking about this for a while but only now remembered to write it down,
how am i supposed to deal with things if i have two opposite traits in me: self-esteem and pride from my mom and an umenie to say sorry and to acknowledge my mistakes from dad? my mom would never come up to me and say, "i was wrong i'm sorry," even when she obviously was. it was only after she talked to my dad she would tell me that she was sorry. because my dad is the kind of person who cant keep it all in him - he knows when he does something wrong, and its this urge to fix things that makes him so apologetic.
so i dont know where I am with all this. its been pretty damn hard, and i feel like all my pain comes from that.. it might take me months to actually realize how wrong i was and say, "nu, mir?"
but i guess better late than never?

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05:42

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ive finally come to terms with the fact that he and his gf are NOT gonna break up and that they ARE happy together.
no blyat, kak zhe hochetsya s kem-nibud pogovorit. ya razuchilas o vnutrennem razgovarivat voobshe, dazhe s russkimi podrugami, dazhe po internetu. perebivau razgovor na drugie temi, otshuchivaus (!!!), rasskazivau veshi kratko. moya luchshaya podruga tut ponytaiya ne imeet chto ya revu stabilno paru raz v nedelu na protyazhenii polugoda, s kakih por ya voobshe tak?! obo vsem znaut tolko v sem'e - no i oni kakie-to virtualnie, kogda ya ih voobshe uvizhu... nikogda ne dumala chto vse budet tak po-drugomu. da i prezhnego NE HOCHU. ya tak zaputalas... ot yanvarskogo "at peace with myself" voobshe nichego ne ostalos. counseling? net. nu a chto togda? ya ne znau chto delat. ya ne znau chego ya hochu. u menya vse est but somethings still missing. kak budto zhdu, chto kto-to pridet i skazhet - ty hochesh vot etogo. i ya soglashus. a poka nikak... vse otlichno no vse sovsem nikak at the same time. i need something but how can i get it if i dont know what it is?

vse eto tak po-russki. i ne tam i ne tut. ya voobshe ne znau gde ya. opyat v kakoj-to idiotskoj seredine. VYTASHITE POZHALUJSTA.

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00:00

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today i decided im not gonna be an asshole anymore (like some people) and finally let it all burn with the leaves.
it is happening again - the only way for me to forgive somebody is to spill it all out. i know i dont care anymore and i DONT wanna ACT like i do. because i dont! i just wanna be nice, and that is all. all is good.

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вторник, 10 мая 2011
07:53

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two more days and one more exam and im done with my sophomore year. OMG.

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понедельник, 09 мая 2011
04:42

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have you ever felt like its Almost there? like theres only a tiny tiny little bit of waiting left? this feeling gives me so much hope.

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02:52

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мейби у меня пмс? почему такое дурацкое настроение и вообще? stupid. stupid. stupid. can i have my inspiration back? can i ever have anything back that's been taken away?

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02:28

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some fucked up day.

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воскресенье, 08 мая 2011
06:41

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весь день спина жутко болит фак осталось 5 дней и 2 экзамена

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00:16

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what a moment i just had.. я решила включить его новый (первый) dubstep ремикс, а там такой депрессивный бит и из всей mirrors слова только
Turning the lights out,
burnin' the candles
and the mirrors gonna fog tonight
я повернула голову чтобы посмотреть в окно, а там светло очень, yj не солнечно, и дождь стеной просто, и я просто молча заревела блин.. вспомнила, как он мне говорил, что никогда не мог счастливые песни писать и как мы спорили, что есть песни dark а есть sad, и что это разные вещи, и он мне давал что-то послушать и спрашивал, это sad или dark
and most of the time i said dark..
this is a really really nice track of his and i cant even tell him anymore.
"Preserve the memories of moments that will never come again."

i dont know how it happens that a person decides to split himself in half.

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среда, 04 мая 2011
05:29

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her mom is the reason why im here and its so damn sad that this is happening. пусть только все наладится уже, а. только бы закончить файналс.

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вторник, 03 мая 2011
23:05

мое главное достижение в этом семестре:

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Dear Fellow Alumni Board Members and Student Board Members,

The Membership & Nominations Committee of the Bucknell University Alumni Association Board of Directors is pleased to announce that the following seven students will join our board as non-voting members beginning July 1, 2011.

...
Masha Zhdanova '13
...

These individuals will be voted in at our Reunion meeting on June 3rd. Please join me in welcoming our new members. I had the pleasure of meeting these young men and women last Saturday on campus. I know you will be impressed with their earnestness, professionalism and loyalty to Bucknell. I sure was.

Committee chairs please contact your new student committee members within the next couple of days; they are looking forward to hearing from you.

I'd like to publicly thank **, ** and ** for their efforts in selecting our new student members. We significantly changed the application process this year. And these individuals were instrumental creating this new process that has allowed us to recruit and vet these terrific student nominees for the Board.

See you all in June.

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понедельник, 02 мая 2011
01:36

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kakovy shansi togo, chto on rasstanetsya s etoj neponyatnoj korejskoj devochkoj chtobi vernutsya ko mne tolko potomu, chto ya luchshe dlya nego? da nulevie. pochemu ya ob etom dumau? this doesnt happen. not to me.
i nevazhno, naskolko ya luchshe, kak horosho ya viglezhu, i chego dobivaus,
one thing isnt changing.
for one only thing in my life,
it is not the time yet.

and agan and again and again,
i dont know why i am who i am.

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вторник, 26 апреля 2011
06:48

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второй день пошел) это охуенно.

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00:19

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понятия не имею, какие будут оценки в этом семестре... осталось всего 6 учебных дней, а еще 3 freaking экзамена, проверочная, 3 лаб репорта и 3 домашки. сколько уже можно? а потом finals week и еще 4 итоговых экзамена. and its like not improving at all.. did really badly on the last diff eqs test, so now im definitely not gonna get anything above a B.. means the GPA will go down again. i wish i could just switch to freaking linguistics sometimes. but i cant..
science is killing me.

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